When you’re more excited to potentially go drink with strangers than spend the new year with your significant other, does that mean we shouldn’t be together? Especially since I’m upset that I’m not drinking with strangers.
And like I’m upset and irritated and grouchy and mostly sober
That shitty feeling knowing you didn’t budget enough for Christmas presents or just basic living…
How am I even an adult?
Feeling very sad and alone.
My dad told me about how one of his coworkers/friends passed away yesterday night. How he had a bad dream before being called into work at 1 am.
They found him in the bathroom at my dads work. He had been grumbling about having bad heartburn, but they’re now thinking he was actually having a heart attack
Idk what to do.
With myself.
Idk why I feel so sad.
Seeing friends out and being happy and wishing I went out with them. Idk.
I feel lost
Someone help.
In another lifetime or perhaps a separate timeline, I think we would be the best of friends.
But for now, we’ll just stay distant friends adjacent.
Please don’t be upset with me for pushing back arrival. It’s not that I’m complacent or don’t want to be with you, it’s really because I don’t have the money.
It doesn’t help that I send you money with each of my paychecks. Most of that money should be my savings toward moving up.
